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You Know You Love Me
Well, the support is in and the house is standing. Now I just need to frame it out and hang the windows! I’m so happy this house is almost done and then I can go back to sleeping in I’m really tired of stating at 730 and stopping around 530 or 6 everyday
How does he even know how to do all of this??? I look at this and nothing makes sense to me. Thank God he knows what he’s doing or we would be totally screwed!
I told him last night how proud I was that we were able to envision the wonderful possibilities of this house when we bought it. But I am mostly proud/incredibly lucky that he is willing and able to make all of my house dreams come true!
I’m Not Young Enough To Know EVERYTHING…
But I am FOR SURE too old for fair-weathered friends. You know, friends who are only your friend when it’s a matter of convenience, or when they need or want something from you or maybe even they’re just in a good mood and feel like gracing you with their presence. I don’t really have the patience for that kind of bullshit. And not only is it a matter of my patience, it’s also just one of the most unattractive qualities in a person. I know a lot of people are assholes, but I also know that a lot of people are not assholes. I feel like the older I get, the less bullshit I feel like putting up with…Which means the less fear I have regarding telling people how I REALLY feel. This means that it’s taking everything within me to not write a list of individuals who happen to completely suck wads in the friendship department…
Whatever. The point is: Let us not bother with those who only bother with us under their own specific circumstances. Life is short and so is the fuse connected to my patience. Right?
There are certain times in your life when you really find out who has your back! It can be a sad realization, but it can also be one of the best things in the world. The friends who sick with you are the ones you know you will have forever!
My Buddy Wins!
Sunday I received the below email. I can’t thank my Buddy enough for this incredibly thoughtful gift.
This reminded me (I’m constantly reminded) that this is such an amazing, loving community. I am so grateful for the support that I get from all of you, all the time! It is often overwhelming to me how much love is out there on the interwebs!
My new Windows have arrived
Yay! Our new windows have arrived! Seriously, what would I do without this man, who knows how to do EVERYTHING!?!?!
Happy Valentine’s Day Tumblr!
The other day I came home to this, seemingly small, but huge to me gesture from one of my very besties. The jist of the note is that she thinks I’ve come through this year, not the basket case I feel like, but something stronger, she even used the word amazing. I don’t know what I would have done without her this year…yes I do, I would have completely fallen apart. Luckily, I didn’t have to.
Thank God for besties!
As usual, my Tumblr Family has made me feel oh so loved and very normal for feeling all the feelings!
Giving it to you staight
As we rapidly approach the, unfathomable to me, one year “anniversary” of my Dad’s death, I feel no closer to “healing” than I did the day he died. In fact, I would venture to say, I feel further from it than I did that day. That day I rationalized the fact that he was no longer in pain, no longer suffering, no longer on this incredibly unfair journey, but in a better place. I was consumed with, What’s next? Is my Mom ok? Who do we need to call? What arrangements need to be made?
Today…today, that’s all bullshit! Today, I want my Dad back. I want my life back. I want to not look around my house and be reminded that he’s gone, to the point that I don’t even want to be there. I want my husband to have his Father Figure back, his friend, his mentor. I want things to feel like they make sense.
This is not to say there have not been days that I have felt good, days that I have laughed and thought things were getting “better,” because I have. But not always, not today. Something is always missing. Something still feels empty. I guess this is my new normal. I guess one day this will feel better than it does today, but I’m just not there yet.
I truly love my husband.
I mean, duh. That’s kind of the point. But homeboy is seriously my BFF. This week he bought me medicine and made me sweet tea and chicken noodle soup. He didn’t complain when I asked him to bring me stuff because my malaria plagued ass was too weak (lazy) to get off the couch.
I remember being single and confused about men (boys) and wondering what this text meant or what that email meant. I was always SO CONFUSED and DRAMATIC ABOUT EVERYTHING. But when I started dating David I was like, “Oh. Huh. So THIS is how it’s supposed to be.” Not one time did I feel confused. I always knew where I stood with him and I never had to wonder if he liked me (he did) or if he would text me back (he would).
He’s a stand up guy and I’m so glad I’m the one who got him.
I could not have said it better! Same goes for my wonderful husband who, as much as he wishes he was going, since he is my usual/best travel partner in crime, is SO supportive of my girls trip next week! He will wish me well at the airport and make sure I am having fun every time he talks to me while I’m gone. All while making The New House the perfect home for us to move into when I come back.
How did I get so lucky???
Best day ever!
This morning I found out that I will be receiving I sum of money that will really help B and I in a big way! But I also just found a place that serves pho with no msg in it and for those of you who know me that’s a really big deal and I’m super excited ;)
Isn’t he the cutest???
